The Beginning...

My ordeal started in May of 2008. For some random reason, I decided to stop taking birth control pills. My husband and I were not trying to have kids at the time, however, I was just sick and tired of taking pills for years! I was tracking my periods and noticed that each month my cycles were getting longer and longer.

In November, I hadn't had a period for 2 months. I took a billion pregnancy tests and they all came out negative. Early December, I started experiencing a ton of pain while I urinating. First I thought I had urinary track infection, but with my lack of period I was afraid they were somehow related.

I went to the doctor and they suspected that I had PCOS. They took a bunch of blood work right before I went away for Christmas. Afraid that we couldn't have kids, my husband and I decided to start trying ASAP. I came back from vacation and had an ultra sound.

My blood work showed that I had a hypothyroidism and got sent to an endocrinologist. My ultrasound showed that I had a "mass" and needed more testing. That was sooo scary! I thought I had cancer.

While awaiting for my January 26th appointment, I was feeling really goofy. I felt jittery, like I had low blood sugar. The thought crossed my mind that I might be pregnant. I really didn't think I was. Every test I took in the past came out negative...but it came out positive! Wow, I was pregnant! My husband was really excited, I thought he was going to be kind off freaked out!

March 4th...our 1st trimester ultrasound. We were so excited...then bad news. The baby died. Then more bad news...the first ultrasound done in early January showed that I had misshapen uterus. They suspected a bicornuate. Why didn't they tell me earlier! I was so pissed! They didn't want to perform a D&C because of the bicornuate so I just had to wait...

March 8th, Sunday, was the first show that the process was starting. For the next two days it proceeded like a normal period. Then Wednesday morning came, I started cramping like never before. They came in 5 minute intervals and lasted about 1 minute long. I was at work and just camped out in the bathroom. Huge clots came out. The cramping lasted from about 10am to 1pm. Then poof, cramps were gone. I remember thinking, that must be the worst of it. I was sooo wrong!

At around 8 or 8:30 I started feeling cramps again. They came at the 5-1 minute intervals. Slowly the intensity started to increase. I tried lying down, walking around, over-the-counter pain meds but nothing worked. It was the worst pain I'd ever felt in my entire life! You know when you get a really bad leg cramp while exercising? Well it felt like that, but 100 times worse, and all over my abdomen! By 10pm I was lying in the middle of my hallway floor in tears. We called our doctor because I was in excruciating pain but nothing was coming out! Finally my husband got our doctor on the phone and she said that because the pain was so bad, and was not at all relieved with pain meds, I should go to the emergency room. Then BAM, I started gushing! Blood just started pouring out of me. I soaked 4 super absorbency pads in about 10 minutes. They said if you soak more than 2 in an hour, go to the emergency room because you could be hemorrhaging. So off we went to the ER...I thought I was losing all my blood volume!

Got to the ER. It took 3 doses of morphine to touch the pain. I remember being so thirsty, but they wouldn't give me anything to drink. I remember the big clock on the wall and knowing when the next cycle of pain was coming. I remember grasping the cold metal side bar of the hospital bed in one hand and my husbands hand in the other. They admitted me to the hospital to monitor my bleeding.

Luckily, I didn't need a blood transfusion or a D&C. They had me on a IV for awhile longer. They performed another ultrasound to make sure all the placenta got out. They make you drink a crap load of water so your bladder is full. I had to pee sooo bad that it hurt!

Got home and laid in bed for 4 days straight. I had no energy, probably from losing all that blood.

Got referred to a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). He put me on a small dose of levothyroxine for my thyroid, low-dose (baby) aspirin because of my allergies/asthma, dexamethazone for my DHEA? levels (I still don't know what that is all about), and set up another ultrasound where they inject me with saline & ink.

June 4th, they said I have a septum, not a bicornuate and scheduled me for surgery. So now it's June 12th, I have surgery in 6 hours, I can't sleep, I started this blog, I hope getting everything out helps me deal with it all. I hope logging all the details of my experiences helps those who are also search for information. Good luck ladies...